Shine

Remember who you are, no matter what, this is evidence of the trials you have been through and how you have overcame.

No matter what take hold of your own presence, it is what you own, and you are the only one who has it, no one else can obtain.

This piece of you that no one else can ever touch, you have created this over the years, and it is your responsiblity to be true to it alone.

No one can decide what you shall do in life, what you shall be in life, the expectations set upon you are merely your own.

To become the being of change, you must become the being of knowing, exhaust all possibilities and come up with clear, distinct reasons.

The things you do in life are not always seen correctly with your own perception, the eyes of others is always needed, so is the heart of another, this can all be found within yourself without a sense of treason.

You are not betraying yourself by understanding your faults and how you were wrong, the injustices you have committed, own up to them, see yourself for the unclean being you are.

Once you truly can see and love your own self with all of your flaws and all of your mistakes, those that have and have not hurt someone else, then your light will shine both near and far.

Inside of Your Words

I want to be beauty inside of your song, the reason your voice floats out and captivates the audience that hears you, even if that is only me, move me and take me somewhere else that only exists with us, disregard the crowd, the film of life, the people who exist and stare at you, come to me, go to your voice, take the beauty out of it all and embrace it all in one note, take the lyrics and give me yourself to where my ears always know, my soul will always react, where my spirit lifts high from the music, before the lyrics are presented, before the song is created, before inspiration is had, I wish to be the beauty inside your I love you. I want to be the longing inside of your whispers, the desperation that comes to you as a need the unyielding urge that cannot be controlled and yet wishes to be ravaged and taken over, made to obey and become my servant, glad to have me as master and cherished to be my follower, patient and kind, resilient and strong yet soft and nurturing, I want to be the passion inside of your I miss you. When all around you has crumbled and the world has turned away, remember my voice, my comfort, my strength, the pieces of me that take care of you the way nothing else does, the pieces of my energy that only you can feel and that come to protect you, when the world has attacked your spirit, remember me, take me in again and own me, accept it with no regards, remember it when your days are darkest and even in the light of the night because that is where I live, inside of your desire, inside of your insecurity, your fears and the things that bother you the most, you are never alone and never on your own, with every situation there is an escape and victory, I want to be the strength you receive when you say I need you. Glowing from ear to ear and not even smiling, walking on clouds and sitting still, not even making a move at all, making others jealous as you live and breath, not even doing anything, but just the state of you being. Feeling free to release and be as open as possible, no fear, no inhibition, trust and dedication, achievement beyond belief. Where you are in life finally achieved, the feelings you want in life finally attained, remembering the future that you seek, being enjoyed in the present and taking it where you never believed it to exist, I want to be the joy in your I am yours.

Embrace Me

Owe it to ourselves, more important you owe it to yourself, to allow me to taste you once again, enjoy the connection we have with each other again, join where our spirits touch more than the physical contact that we share between each other. The emotional and spiritual growth that we have added onto ourselves in between meetings, the mental maturity that we have gained on our own, catalyst to bringing us back to one another, prompted by the tugging in our hearts that we feel without knowing or cause, you yearn for my presence when you need it most, you desire to be in my presence when you need it least, in the midst of what should be a good time, you think of me, wishing to leave and be with me, the moments where it would seem the least likely, you proclaim you miss me, you know where my heart resides. So allow it, allow that passion to take you over, come take over what is rightfully yours, this body, this passion, this intimacy, gain within it all that you knew you were missing when we kissed again, when we touched how your worries left you and disappeared into my strength, how my spirit can take away that which will harm you, see me for who I am to you and what you mean to me, disregard those fears, they hurt you and me, reveal unto me all that your body requires, I already know so I will be in the process of fulfilling while listening. Let’s allow this one chance to experience what cannot be named, making love is the base of it all, love that will always remain, it is there for a reason, take the opportunity to acknowledge why it remains, dive into the passion of it, so that you can know why you want to keep the taste in your mouth forever. Let us not say this is the last time as all it is, let us say this is the first time as the new beings we reconnected as, the two new individuals and being who we truly see within each other, you already see me, I have always seen you, keep showing me you, embrace me

Room Full

Room full of individuals, loud cheering, excitement, joy and all exclamation points pointed toward the heavens, I miss you, this feels empty, lost, desolate, and meaningless. A defining point in life, missed, feeling worthless, experienced once before, not looking forward to continuing life in this manner, where is the fun, there is a great lost of desire, do we not all get to this point in life? Where things are different than they were, where it means more to not be alone, not feel isolated, feel included, feel that you belong, feel that you mean something, feel that your presence is essential, feel that filling within that matters more than anything else.

Last Seconds

Quick short breaths, that feeling of excitement and terror, then it all stops, nothing else remains, the emptiness of death filling you as life escapes through your eyes, your last thoughts are immaterial, your eyes able to rotate to see no one around, your mouth curls itself up to try to scream, nothing comes out, desperation starting to settle in but the time has passed, now what is there?

I See You

Beyond everything else, I take you in, breathe in your dreams, your aspirations, those pieces of you that you haven’t shared. I see you as you truly are, not the facade put up for the world to see. The defense mechanism that you have put around you in order to hurt me, push me away, keep me out, I’m stronger than fear and I live towards love without it, I see you. That passion you have for love, how life entreats your soul and captivates your mind, remember I know when you are not fine, when that strain on your heart has turned you upside down, when your bad day needs an escape, when your mind has been shattered, I see you. Potential or power, you give it your own word, I see you for who you really are to you, and how you really feel for me, past all the lies to yourself and to me, I see you and love all of you unconditionally.

Talks of Pain

Every moment, I breathe, I ache, chest pains, migraines, torn apart and thrown aside, I ache like no other believes, it is purely my fate, been instructed to endure, peace will come, God when is that?, this arm barely functions, this arm is bent and crooked, these legs do not want to keep moving, this back stiff like a rock, this chest solid and ready to cave at the same time, these eyes seeking to see something new, these ears hear something true, these fingers ready to feel something no longer false, but real, this neck ready to be able to rest, shoulders wishing to have the weight lifted, feet ready to no longer walk alone, this heart ready to quit pushing itself to the limit only to truly push closer to the end.

Stream of Thought

Passionate, tempted, left in fear, lost in love, this is the time where the heart flies. Spinning around in circles, glowing from the presence of entrance, and then temptation dies. Captivate my mind and I will reward you with passion. Entice my soul and I will repay you with fulfillment. Seduce my senses and I will give you back the shock of your life with your own.

Short and Sweet

This is the testament of a teacher
A follower
A lover
A fighter
Dedicated to one
Leaving the rest behind
Taken from the power of many
And given as an attribute for one
My body stays in pain
Coming right from where she is missing
Right below my heart
Supposed to serve as protection
Fall in line with the others
And make me whole
She is missing
This bone is gone
Doesn’t exist possibly
Maybe chose not to accompany me
So alone I walk
Grimacing as I walk
Frowning as I stroll
Sharp pains going through and through
This is purely a testament
Not to the world
But to You
If it matters to you
I am numb to the world
I feel nothing but this pain
Sleep is draining
Being awake is terrifying
This is how I live every second
Long and short
It hurts

Value of Truth

Sometimes it only takes one lie to kill a year worth of honesty.  People put too much value on their own stupid pride to be honest with others and it does them no good especially when the lie is found out.  People need to realize that lies are not just about saying something that is false but so much more than that.  A lie can be the omission of information, can be the opposite action of words spoken, or simply can be an action that negates the words spoken. 

For a lot of people, the number one lie that someone will say is in their mind is, “I love you”.  Those words have so less value in this day and time because of those devious people who keep it as a way of keeping someone.  Who use those words as a means of making someone feel or believe in something that will not be chosen.  Yes there is a choice in love.  You do not really control who you fall for or who you connect to and that is why love is hard sometimes.  The other reason why it is hard is because people choose to make it so.  Tell someone you love them and can not see your life without them yet you are holding yourself back, acting out of fear with them, or not even showing emotion towards them in many senses simply because you choose not to.  Safe to say that someone you alientate from many parts of you is not someone who will feel any love from you in those matters.  Love is an all around emotion especially in a romantic sense.  The misuse of love, needs, and wants are some of the biggest lies that always happen. 

The second biggest lie is double standards.   Granted this is more of an action but the reason that is can be a lie is because their actions show that something is okay and truth when they do it.  However on the opposite side it becomes false and wrong when it done to them so either their acceptance of the action is a lie or their attitude towards the action occurring to them is a lie.  Either way these type of people always will hurt someone else and especially those that they say they love because they refuse to see themselves for who they really are and live only off of their prideful self conception. 

Understanding does not exist in this world anymore because people live in love with the excuses they make in life.  Instead of accepting responsibility for anything, an excuse is made and acceptable because there is always a reason outside of the real reason something happened:  you chose to do so.  Majority of society is cowards and wonder why they are still the same and going through the same stuff.  Being too scared to be the person you wish to be or branch out from being someone you do not like is stupid and painful.  So many people are purposely hurting themselves but blame the world. 
So here are some blunt truths for everyone and I can guarantee that it will be a lot of opposition to some of these and that just goes back to my earlier point.  First, actions speak louder than words.  Fear is your own worst enemy.  You can not go through life scared of being hurt because then you are setting yourself up to be hurt.  Anything that you do or do not is your choice and reflects more about you than anyone else.  The person you truly are is how you act and think about acting when there is no one around.  We have no right to judge anyone else.  It is stupid to not trust anyone.  Love does matter.  Compromise is necessary not conformity.  You can not change anyone or make them do anything, you only control yourself.  Everyone is selfish.  No one will ever be perfect.  Everyone makes mistakes, does wrong, and hurts others with their knowing they did it and not knowing they did it and some more than others.  Change is easy when you know yourself and you are honest with yourself.  The world is real and yes it may suck at times.  Success is always within your grasp.  People who you can not grow with are holding you back. 

Lastly life is not promised, it is short and fleeting so why hold back and create regrets.  Live life to the fullest while you can.