The outcast
no play on words
Just truth this time
whether you know it or not
some things are not up to me
Acceptance can not be created from others
within the self
Accept the self
Gains the confidence
Respect
Earned and given
changes nothing in the end
looked for when my presence is missed
looked over when it is not being sought
Difference between want and need
need requires no acceptance
want is a desire because of it
To have both
Makes the most sense
Quiet
Listen
Focus
Close your eyes
Rely on other senses
Feel past your fingertips
Now Breathe
Temptation mounts
am I happy with it, of course not
am I sad that it occurs, indifference rises proud
This is not a piece of me that is a shroud
Literally there are many things that need not concern
My mind is already full of discernment
No point in dding to it confusion driven torment
When it matters, it does
No holds barred, take off the gloves
I am a loser
many different battles, I have been through
I stand tall when it is over
Not the outcome I asked for, this is true
I want to be left on the battlefield
Beaten, torn, abused, and left to lay
Watch as my comrades run away, I am their shield
When I look around, it is for them I pray
that my strength was enough to save them all
That my life could have been theirs to surpass
Willing to sacrifice myself for this one fall
My way to move away fully from my past
Yes I am a loser
A
Lover
Open
Strong
Eternally
Ready
You believe it was majority lust
Trust
I miss your kiss
Not that it has to lead past just this
the passion of that first time
the excitement of our lips finally touching
Frozen in time
I do not want to leave your lips
Leave the grip I have on your hips
Leave the look in your eyes as your bite down
Leave the way you pull me closer to you, all smiles
The way I run my hand through your hair
The way my air becomes your air
This is the part of loving you I miss the most
This is passion inside of love, no lust
Trust
It is hard to love
Where choice for the love
Is replaced by confusion
Lack of communication
Lack of understanding
Pursuit of pride
This is not where love can reside
Love can be incredible
Fantastic
Powerful
Interesting
Fulfilling
False love can be agonizing
Painful
Lonely
Empty
Defeating
Which do you give?
Which do you receive?
If you truly love there is no reason to feel the lesser of these.
Make me know I am important
I refuse to be second best
Why give you my all when you deem me like the rest
You miss the point of what my actions meant
I will just go back from where I went
If I gave up you for lent
Would it take that much for you to repent?
I remember moments I did not want to be a way from you
Moments I thought of only you
Moments it came from the depth of my heart
This type of feeling that never want us to be apart
Things have changed now
We are not getting along
We have not for a long time
I do not believe there is any more life
There is only the lack of you
Love, me and you can never can true
Writing for myself is not about the fame or the glory
It is a way for me to teach, to show, and to share my story
While some may consider it painful at times
There is also a feeling of familiarity in these rhymes
Emotions that others have felt and struggled with
Yet their knowledge of how to express them does not exist
So I share with the masses, those feelings of captivity
Those feelings that change you inside, can warp your identity
And then within that pain, show the light and there is a way out
or within that pain, show that there is always a need to shout
Release the pent up emotions and let it all go
Release those things that hinder you, and continue to move forward
I dare not say I am here to change the view of the entire world
Yet maybe I can be that catalyst, to change one person’s world
If I am so blessed to be helpful to you, I appreciate you more than you know
I am a person who loves potential, I love the ambition to grow
I have been called and told a many things during this life I lead
and I will continue to be called many things even after I no longer can breathe
If nothing else, I would appreciate your honesty
Towards me, I need nothing more, than your acceptance for my dignity
